DescriptionThe one thing Haven Noel wants for his Christmas birthday is for his master, Kellen, to love him. But the wonderful Christmas Eve Haven plans for his master goes awry and instead of receiving his master's love, Haven ends up on the street without his collar. Heartbroken, Haven heads to the club where he and Kellen originally met, only to find it closed.
With a blizzard descending and nowhere to go, Haven curls up on the club doorstep, courting death. Hopeless and shattered, on the verge of losing consciousness, he makes a wish for Kellen to find happiness some day. Two angels with a vested interest in Haven and Kellen's happiness hear his wish and conspire with Kellen's family to save Haven's life, bring love back to Kellen's heart and give them both the best kinky Christmas ever.
Reader Rating: (24 Ratings)
Excerpt:A door slammed and Haven jumped. He shook so hard he could barely walk. In a stupor, he shuffled toward the door. His trembling fingers fumbled with the buckle of his collar. After several tries, he got it undone. The leather fell to the floor and Haven stepped over it, opening the front door. The instant the snow swirled around him, tears began to slip down his cheeks.
He stood on the front step for a moment, shocked and unable to think. He closed the door behind him. As it clicked shut, separating him from the only happiness he had known since his mother’s death, his tears began in earnest. He didn’t feel the cold. A kind of numbness settled over him, fogging his mind and his body. All he could feel was the breaking of his heart as he stepped onto the sidewalk and began to walk away from Kellen’s house.
As he walked down the street, Haven realized that what he’d thought of as home for the last eight months had been nothing more than his master’s house. He’d been fooling himself to think of it as his home. He’d been insane to believe that if he loved his master enough, one day the man would love him back. His collar had meant nothing to Kellen while it had meant everything to Haven. But now it was gone and he was dismissed into the cold on Christmas Eve. It would be his birthday in a few hours and he had nowhere to go. No one would miss his presence. His place in the world had vanished.
Stumbling as the cold increased, Haven walked the mile and a half to Darkness, the leather club where he’d met Kellen. He had the vague notion that if the club was open, maybe he could sell his body in order to rent a motel room. Or maybe some Dom would take pity on him and take him home for the night.
Haven shuddered at the thought. Even in his numbed state, he knew he couldn’t let another man lay hands on him. He belonged to Kellen whether Kellen wanted him or not. And since Kellen didn’t want him, that left him with very limited options for the future.
When he reached Darkness, he found the club closed. He walked to the main entrance and banged on the black doors for a few minutes. No one answered. The wind howled and snow swirled around him thickly. Staring up at the club’s large doors, Haven’s emotional numbness began to recede a little. In its place came a great dark despair.
Slumping down against the door, Haven wrapped his arms around his drawn up knees and rocked, hoping the motion would bring some heat back to his frozen limbs. It didn’t. His tears still came, but they were no longer a flood. They froze as they dripped from his chin, but Haven no longer cared. He couldn’t feel his feet or fingers any longer and his mind retreated from the certain death he courted in the exposed doorway. His icy fingers pressed against his neck, searching for his collar. When he remembered that he no longer had a collar, he squeezed his eyes shut and slid completely to the ground, lying on the icy cement, curled into a ball.
He would die on his twenty sixth birthday. On Christmas. How ironic that he would leave the world on the same day he came into it. He tried to think of things he’d done that would leave a mark after he was gone, but nothing came to mind. He’d been nothing while he was alive and his death would mean nothing to anyone. Kellen didn’t care. Kellen didn’t love him or want him. He had no reason to stay in a world where he could no longer be with the only man he’d ever loved.
With a whimper, Haven’s eyes closed. His heartbeat became slower and as it did, his despair seeped away. As he fell asleep, he accepted the consequences that came with it, glad for a release from the pain that had shattered him the moment Kellen had told him to take off his collar and leave his house. Without his master, he had no reason to fight for his life.
Reader Reviews (10)
Submitted By: granrob on Jan 30, 2014Wow! Very emotional story...needed tissues through most of it! Loved it!
Submitted By: fergie on Jan 25, 2014This is such a touching, heart warming story! Love it!
Submitted By: roula on Jan 8, 2014it was ok i guess. Its clearly about couples with bdsm not just in the bedroom but as a kind of living. the non human intervation was kind of the top even with the whole christmas theme and too sappy at some points.
Submitted By: vayld on Feb 17, 2013Warning: you will cry for about 2/3 of this book. It does resolve nicely in the end, although I feel that the ending wasn't enough. So the dom realizes he was an ass, but that doesn't necessarily translate to providing for all of his sub's needs after that. I would have liked to see more than a few hours after his turnaround.
Submitted By: karenminfl on Jan 26, 2013This is a story of hurt and brokenness and how two angels work to turn it around to hope and healing. This story was not exactly what I was expecting but it turned out to be so much better.
Submitted By: thamesgirl on Jan 23, 2013I was a little hesitant at first about reading this one. It turned out much better than expected. The character development is pretty good for a short read.Very emotional and heavy on the angst but enjoyable nonetheless. A sequel would be nice.
Submitted By: djoneslbw on Jan 13, 2013Good book short but definitely worth the read my heart went out to both Kellen and Haven I wish it was just a bit longer. I would love to read Nick and Micah's story
Submitted By: Judy865 on Jan 3, 2013Short, but intense. Was a really good holiday read with an uplifting ending.
Submitted By: jean-michel1998 on Jan 2, 2013I liked reading this book. Sometimes it was a little over the top, i. e. drama, heartache, love,.... However all in all a good short read.
Submitted By: Deblet on Jan 1, 2013I loved this book from start to finish. It had me hooked from the first page. I definitely recommend having some tissues handy, it's not very often that a short story like this one can get me so invested in the characters that I start crying over their story but this one sure did. I highly recommend this story it is well written and a lovely and moving story.