DescriptionAmish woman Sara Lapp, all but shunned for studying with the local doctor to become a midwife, is shocked that, after months of waiting, her first call comes from “Mad” Adam Zuckerman, a self-appointed outcast. Adam doesn’t want her to attend at a birth, but to tend to his children because his wife has died in childbed.
Adam wants to love his children, but he is afraid he will hurt them in the way his father hurt him. Without his late wife, Abby, to protect them, Adam must find someone else to care for the girls. He can think of only one woman brave enough, Spinster Sara Lapp, the little midwife whose passion for things beyond her control is greater than is good for her.
Though Sara knows the four little girls belong with their father, how can she leave them with a man who seems not to care for them? As much as she loves and wants the girls, she will only take them long enough to teach Adam to love them. Then Adam falls from the barn loft and Sara moves in to look after him. But in the Amish community a man and woman living together must marry or be shunned. The Bishop takes a stand and Sara and Adam are forced to face the greatest challenge of their lives.
Please Note: historical romance in Amish setting with sexual content.
"Sensual and thematic tension, heartache, and Annette Blair's fine writing and wit combine in equal measure to make "The Butterfly Garden" a unique, romantic, and thoroughly pleasing novel. It's a keeper." Michelle Buonfiglio, Romance: B(u)Y the Book
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Excerpt:Chapter One -- Walnut Creek, Ohio, 1883
Amish Midwife Sara Lapp stopped at the base of the farmhouse steps and tilted her head, as much to keep the autumn wind from stealing under her black wool crown-bonnet as to meet the eyes of the man towering above her on his porch.
Adam Zuckerman stood taller and more forbidding than usual in the eerie pitch of night, even barefoot and unflinching on a cold porch floor. One suspender crossed his open-throated union suit, the other hung in a loop at his side—an oversight that should make a man seem vulnerable. But Adam Zuckerman was as about as defenseless as a grizzly.
Sara swallowed and raised her chin, determined to say what no one else dared. “Abby should not be having another. You’re killing her with so many babies so close.”
Adam Zuckerman reared back as if struck, raising the hair at the nape of Sara’s neck, skittering her heart.
Even the wind howled a wild lament.
A moment of fury claimed the taciturn man, another of rigid control, before he raised his lantern high, and examined her, inch by slow insulting inch. “What know you, Spinster Sara,” said he, “of such things as should or should not happen between a man and his wife?”
A hit, dead center. Mortal—or so it seemed. Spinster Sara. And if she called him mad, like the rest of the world did, how would he respond?
Mad Adam Zuckerman, whose scowl could stop a man cold, whose presence could turn children to stone, even his own . . . especially his own. Why had this self-chosen outcast, of all people, called her to tend his laboring wife, despite the community’s stand against her?
No one could figure him out. No one tried anymore.
Sara climbed to the porch, despite his defiant stance. “Time I looked in on Abby.”
But Abby’s husband stepped in her path. “Get out.” That flash of emotion appeared again and vanished again.
She was the lesser of evils, Sara knew. None of her people—man or woman—wanted a man around during labor and birth, doctor or no, but without care, childbirth in their Ohio Amish Community was too-often deadly. “If you have no need for my skill as a midwife, why did you send for me?”
“Skill or no, the right to judge is not yours.”
Given the accuracy of his statement, the catch in Adam’s voice disturbed Sara. “But the right to save lives is,” she said. “Leave Abby alone for a while after this.”
His eyes went dark and hard as flint, making Sara look away, and pull her cape closed against a sudden chill.
A newborn cry rent the air, forcing their gazes to collide, Sara’s born of shock, Adam’s of regret. “Move aside and let me in,” Sara said, but Adam turned, entered, and let the door shut in her face.
Raising an angry hand, Sara shoved it hard and smacked him good, taking no solace from the hit. Stepping into the farmhouse kitchen, she was assaulted by the lingering scents of smoked ham and cabbage. A kerosene lamp on the scarred oak table flickered and hissed, hazing the perimeter of the room, but Sara knew her way and made straight for the stairs.
She stopped and rounded on him. “For the love of God, Abby could be bleeding to death!”
Adam paled, defeat etching his features with an unforgiving blade until emotion dimmed and none was left. “She’s not.” He hooked that forgotten suspender over his shoulder with slow, even precision.
Not his words, but his misplaced action and calm voice gone brittle held her. Sara shivered. “Did you deliver the baby, then? Before I came?”
Adam did not move so much as a muscle, yet Sara watched, mesmerized, as he struggled to tear himself from some agonizing place. “She delivered it.”
Despite the blaze in the hearth, cold assaulted Sara with knife pricks to her skin. “Then how do you—”
Her denial as involuntary as her sob, Sara grasped a chair-back for support, but none was to be found. Her pounding heart took over her being.
The babe’s cry came again. Louder. Angrier.
The old walnut regulator clock grated in the silence—the commencement of eternity marked in counterpoint to the commencement of life.
As if from nowhere, and without acknowledgment, a grudging if temporary amnesty flowered between Mad Adam Zuckerman and Spinster Sara Lapp. She read it in his eyes as clearly as she knew it in her soul, and she was shaken, because deep in a place she tried to keep sealed, Sara feared she had been altered.
But panic was not to be tolerated. There was death to deal with, and life. She took the stairs at a slow pace, no more prepared for one than the other.
As she approached Abby’s room, Sara saw inside where a row of pegs lined the wall. One of Abby’s dresses hung beside Adam’s Sunday suit. If marriage had a picture, this would be it. On the floor below, an aged walnut bride’s box sat open, baby clothes spilling out.
The babe in its cradle had fallen into a fitful sleep. Sara covered it with a second blanket and it sighed and slept on. When she stepped to the big bed, a second unfettered sob rocked her.
Tired. Even with her pain-etched features relaxed in death, Abby Zuckerman looked too tired to go on. Sara smoothed hair the color, scent and texture, of stale straw off her only friend’s cool brow. “Time to rest, Ab.”
Abby’s bony arms above the quilt contrasted sharply with her swollen, empty belly beneath. Even as a child, Abby had been thin, but her skeletal form looked so much in keeping with death, of a sudden, that Sara wondered why she had never noticed it before.
Swallowing hard, whispering a silent prayer, Sara squeezed her friend’s work-rough hand for the last time.
Just like Mom, Sara thought, ignoring the pull on her heart.
If only there’d been a midwife for Mom.
If only she’d been sent for earlier tonight. If only. . .
Sara looked up, far beyond yellowed ceiling plaster and slap-patched roof, farther even than dark, scudding clouds gravid with snow. “Miss you, Mom. Meet Abby Zuckerman. Be friends.”
A sound from behind caught Sara’s attention. Adam must think her daft as him. Everybody knew her mother died with her brother at his birth fifteen years before. She raised her chin and turned to face her nemesis.
“A man needs sons to help on the farm,” he said, and waited, seeking understanding, Sara knew, but she did not have it to give. And after too long a time to be comfortable, he grunted and turned away. “Got to go milk. See to the babe.”
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